Reset

I'm writing this post on May 2, 2014, but I'm dating it as July 27, 2006. Why am I back-dating my blog by eight years (have I really had a blog that long)?

The reason for this is that I'm resetting my blog, and the reset goes back to July 27, 2006.

I've gone through a lot of changes in the last few years, and I'm really not the same person who started this blog. That person was filled with arrogance and self-centeredness, and much of what I posted was inane, meaningless junk that doesn't really represent who I am now.

So, why July 26, 2006?

In March 2006, I began a journey that has ultimately led me to the place I am now. I wrote about that journey in detail in my Taming the Savage Breast blog as I battled and survived breast cancer. More importantly, I was being led back to my faith in God during that time. That faith has transformed me immeasurably.

I have gone through my blog and taken down all of the posts that I feel do not represent who I am today (which is probably about 90% of them). It's not that there was anything wrong with them or that I was mean or talked about taboo subjects or that they were even controversial. I took them down because as I read them, I could hear the arrogance and self-importance in my tone of voice. The topics were mostly nonsense. There was something about reading those posts and being able to read that I had this idea that what I had to say on any of those topics was "important" that kind of repulses me now. So I removed them.

Of the posts I chose to keep, the first one is dated July 26, 2006. I wanted this post to proceed that earliest post, so I dated it just after midnight on July 26.

So you might be wondering why I'm still bothering to post if the idea of posting seems self-important. The reason I want to post is that God has inspired me to write about my journey and what He's taught me about who He is and who I am in Him. My journey has been humbling and freeing and peaceful and joyful and filled with love. If I can share just the smallest amount of what I've learned so that someone else can experience the freedom, peace, joy and love of the Lord, then I want to be able to share it.

The story is no longer about me at the center. It's still my story. But my story is His story. He's at the center, and my life is simply one perspective. It's through multiple perspectives that we learn who He is. So I'm adding my perspective to the myriad perspectives that are already out there. And maybe in my perspective, something will resonate for someone who needed to see it or hear it in just that way to help them see a more complete picture of who God is and who they are in God.